that tight, icky feeling in my chest...

Typically, what I'd do now is go to church and sit for awhile until the whole stressed feeling passes. But Blake is delivering his mom to Kingsport, TN with the car so here I am instead.

Donald quit his volunteer job today. I brought him lunch, as usual, at twelve thirty. He asked me to wait - I sat in a chair outside Shari's office, and the next thing I know, I hear him resigning his position. He asks me to pack up his lunch and call his bus. We then proceed to remove all of his personal belongings from his office while everyone looks on, clueless as the what the heck we were doing and why. I had no idea what was happening but it felt awful. I've actually gotten to know everyone there pretty well. This was abrupt and very uncomfortable. When asked if he would still come by to visit every now and then, Donald's response was "no, probably not. but if you ever want to say hello, you know where I live."

I come to find out that the straw that broke Donald's back was that they put up a table and chairs with a sign that said "wait here until someone comes to assist you" in the hallway, while he was out, without consulting him. There's a bit more to it (what Donald read into the situation) but that was pretty much it. And he quit. So my job has now become more one-on-one patient care. Which is exhausting & I should be paid a heck of a lot more for but, oh, well. We're moving in a couple of months anyway.

On another note, my Jeep needs more work done on the transmission so that sucks. We need a working vehicle and neither one is reliable at this point. We've rented a car to get us to Richmond to pick up the Jeep this Friday b/c Blake's car won't make it.

At some point, when we know where we're going and what our income will be, we can make some major decisions about the cars and (hopefully) we'll get rid of them both and buy one RELIABLE vehicle. But for now, we've just got to keep our heads above the water until some more of this limbo stuff ends.

Limbo sucks, but it's where growth can occur. If you're never in limbo, it means that nothing in your life is changing and that probably sucks more in the long run.

It's amazing how our lives follow the church calendar. I'm living in Holy Saturday, preparing and planning and waiting for the Easter part of life to come back around. Easter will come, and then the cycle will go on again and again. We will celebrate new birth, we will prepare, we will come to a point where we are all "set" and be able to share our gospels, we will give and take, we will fast and do without, and we will experience all kinds of deaths, we will wait in Holy Saturday's limbo, and we will celebrate the rejuvenation, energy, and joy of our Easters.


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